I must find the fire

A year has past, a new year has begun,
One more chance to turn my eyes to the sun,
I must find the fire, I must start again,
I must be renewed, yet still be the same.

I am not whole, I am wracked with chaos,
Imbued with a deep emotional loss,
That threatens to engulf my very soul,
But I am not willing to take the fall.

I will not falter, I will hold my place,
I will keep to the shadows, hide my face.
Please pass me by, for I will stand aloft,
Whilst I search inside for that which I lost.

Let me burn for you

Please, please, numb the pain, tie me to my bed,

The pain in my heart is now in my head,

Break me, placate me, fill me with desire,

For it burns with an all consuming fire.

Don't waste it, use it, let me burn for you,

Shape it, mould it, please give me something new,

A feeling of pleasure, of pain so sweet,

Let us lose all consciousness in this heat.

I long for comfort, the taste of your lips,

The rise and fall of your forgiving hips,

Rake me, tease me, tear my body apart,

Feast on my flesh, till you reveal my heart.

Please take it and heal it, sooth all the scars,

Lift it to my eyes and cleanse it with tears.

Your Angel

Part of your heart is forever frozen

By memories that will never change

Trapped in your heart forever

A distant smile filled with pain.

When your heart shines

Your Angel smiles down from above

And if you ever need her

Your Angel holds your hand with love.

Treasure all of your memories,

Always hold them close,

Don't let go of your heart,

Even when it hurts the most.

When your heart shines

Your Angel smiles down from above

And if you ever need her

Your Angel holds your hand with love.

Lonesome Cries

I hate the pain that you must feel inside,
I hate the way it burns behind your eyes,
I hate the fact I can't be by your side,
I hate that no one hears your lonesome cries.

Give me your pain I'll take it deep inside,
Let it burn within my vigilant eyes,
As you cruelly thrust the spear in my side,
Only you will hear my blood curdling cries.

I ignore the pain I now hold inside,
As I search for the sparkle in your eyes,
I gently wrap my arm around your side,
In a bid to banish your anguished cries.
I will kiss oblivion from your eyes
So I can silence all your lonesome cries.

Tear me down

I can’t imagine not living for something,
I can’t imagine not living for you.
I can’t imagine never giving up something,
I would give it all for a moment with you.

Tear me down and reveal my frailties,
Tear me down and see the truth,
Tear me down and hold me always,
Be my eternal fountain of youth.

Tell me that you will live for something,
Tell me that all of this is true,
Tell me that you could give up something,
To become more than you ever knew.

Tear it down, reveal your beauty,
Tear it down to find your way,
Tear it down, it is now your duty,
To make me smile from day to day.

I'm Afraid

An old poem I found in my journal.



I'm Afraid

My heart is happy, but my head’s on fire,
To see you smile is my only desire.
I’m afraid to speak, so afraid you’ll run,
Afraid it will end before it’s begun.

I lay wide awake and wonder if you
In anyway feel the same way I do?
I send you a message, I just say “Hi,”
But there is no “Hello,” and no “goodbye”.

This Dream

Back in April I wrote the words below for a collaboration with Rachel Harrison. I've know her for many years due to meeting on DeviantArt back in the day. We did a collaboration, years and years ago, and felt it worth trying again! Hopefully this will become a regular thing :-)

Please go to her blog and show her some love!

http://thegirlrach.wordpress.com



This Dream


In you I found I was not denied
In you I found a place to hide
In you I found that I had died
Because I found that you had lied. 

You lost me in a dream of love
You left me with a broken soul
You lost me in this sphere of love
That often threatens to break us all



The amazing piece of art that I received back is this:

The original piece that we created many moons ago is this:

If I care about you

If I care about you
Then I invite you
To be part of my life,
To matter to me.

If I care about you
You are raised high
Held above the world
And counted free.

If I care about you
I will hold you close
And ensure that you
Are never cast adrift.

If I care about you
You have my heart
It will not falter
It is my gift.

All I Need

All I need
All I need is you
All I need is you smiling
All I need is you smiling and knowing
All I need is you smiling and knowing that I
All I need is you smiling and knowing that I caused it
All I need is you smiling,
because when you do,
it's beautiful.

Starshine

The moon has ruled too long,
and I haven’t heard your song;
The sky has been too bright
to see your lonesome light.

Come back and sing your song,
I hope it won’t be long,
Till I see you gleaming smile
And talk with you awhile.

You shine much more than most,
Yet you’re the last to boast,
Of what you have inside;
Your beauty can’t be denied.

Come back and sing your song,
I hope it won’t be long,
Till I see you gleaming smile
And talk with you awhile.

I envy your sojourn,
And wish for your return,
Don’t stay away too long;
Return and sing your song.

Come back and sing your song,
I hope it won’t be long,
Till I see you gleaming smile
And talk with you awhile.

Come home and stay for tea,
Don’t stay across the sea,
Come back to those who care
And wish that you were there.

Come back and sing your song,
I hope it won’t be long,
Till I see you gleaming smile
And talk with you awhile.

Luxuriantly

Her thighs are spread before me,
I rest my hand atop her knee
I breath in deeply, scenting her musk,
My eyes settling and admiring her bust.

My fingers dance on her flesh,
Delighting in a lust so fresh,
Trailing lightly and exploring deftly
As she sighs and moans
luxuriantly.

The Park

I tremble as I sit by your side
Your hand running slowly down my thigh
As I look into your eyes they open wide
And I listen to your delicious sighs.

My arms hold you tight as you rest
Yet I can sense the yearning in your breast
As you rest your head on my chest
I know your thoughts even though they are unexpressed.

Tell the Truth

This is a poem from last year, there's the odd part I like about it.


When I told the truth
I broke down my barriers
I hope it was not uncouth
And you forgive my frankness

It has all shaken loose
And I will let go
But only if you choose
To admit what you show

My heart is still bleeding
But I am not afraid
My blood is still pumping
With passion to be shared

Don’t run from your feelings
What your heart says is true
What can be more appealing
Than being me and also you.

Strange Water

I stand above your blacked surface,
An expanse I cannot measure.
I shudder at your unsightly purpose,
The secret of my displeasure.

I came to you three nights before
To feed you with my bounty.
I gave you that which I abhor,
As if it were my duty.

She will ne'er be bothered by the tide,
Or washed ashore like flotsom,
You swallowed deep my deathly bride,
Weighed deep within your bosom.

I kneel before your depth of woe,
Drawn back by my disgrace,
I crawl until I'm head to toe,
Lost deep beneath your surface.

Beauty - An Exercise

This is a writing exercise based on Beauty; at some point I may pull these lines apart and find a poem.


Beauty can drive you crazy
Beauty can make you insane
Beauty can change your outlook
Beauty can cause you pain

Beauty is not your equal
Beauty is the fall of man
Beauty is all you wish for
Beauty is where it began

Beauty will give you heartache
Beauty will be your guide
Beauty will waste to nothing
Beauty will be set aside

Beauty has taken you captive
Beauty has stolen your soul
Beauty has changed you forever
Beauty has swallowed you whole

Beauty knows nothing of substance
Beauty knows it will not last
Beauty knows that you desire it
Beauty knows it is surpassed

Beauty was nothing without you
Beauty was not what you thought
Beauty was more than just pleasure
Beauty was not to be caught

Beauty does not understand you
Beauty does as it will please
Beauty does what will placate it
Beauty does nothing but tease

Beauty may ask what you’re thinking
Beauty may seem more than lust
Beauty may not live forever
Beauty may not earn your trust

Beauty shall know temptation
Beauty shall be denied
Beauty shall take the burden
Burden shall know that you lied

Beauty should be everlasting
Beauty should hold no fears
Beauty should lead your heartstrings
Beauty should shed no tears

Beauty cannot be forgiven
Beauty cannot live within
Beauty cannot find redemption
Beauty cannot dwell with sin

A Love that Dies

Wrote this quite passionately earlier tonight. Thinking of trying to tidy it up a bit, it's very pure at the moment, which I like, but I would love to spend some time on it and turn it into a Sonnet.

A Love than Dies

There is no suffering more mournful,

Nor terror more frightening,

Than the sorrow in your soul of a love that dies.

Whether tis the heart that stops beating,

Or a heart that stops loving,

It is a pain that must be endured

For the rest of your life.

Your heart must keep beating,

Your heart must keep loving,

Else the thoughts and the memories were nought but lies.

Be one with your anguish,

Be one with your regret,

Be one with your heart songs,

Be one with your fate.

You will always remember,

You will never forget,

Your heart will keep beating,

So please do not fret.

Can you hear the rain fall

Can you hear the rain fall, can you hear what it says?

Can you hear the tears of a child as it prays?

If you hear the helpless, if you hear the winds,

You won't fear the darkness, or the pain that it brings.

If you can bear witness, if you can stand tall,

If you can be willing to accept you will fall;

You will keep loving, you will be loved,

You will be heralded by he who is love. 

The Vampire

Give me your passion, give me your all
Don’t be afraid to take a fall
Life is for living, don’t have regrets
Live for this moment, be one with my sex.

I’ll give you pleasure, I’ll take the pain,
I’ll make it so real that the memories remain.
Don’t lose this feeling, don’t let me go,
I’ll give and I’ll take more than you know.

I am a vampire, I feed on your soul,
To make you mine is my only goal.
I’ll tear you apart, take you into my world
I’ll slowly destroy you then start to rebuild.

Emotions

Are humans a slave to their emotions;

Endlessly searching for the sublime,

Or is happiness just a desperate notion

That changes and evolves over time.

An animal has feelings, but are they aware

Can they process and surpass their feral instincts?

Our emotions control us, but are beyond compare,

They form our perception and make us distinct.

But are we ever ourselves again

When our emotions burn faster and stronger in pain

We are changed by the experience, lost in the shame

Of losing a loved one with nothing to gain.

Je ne sais quoi

Sanity is breaking loose, and insanity is all I have left.

I am cleft to its bosom, trapped like a child

Clinging to the only support that my developing hands can grasp.

I am a newborn, a halfbreed of all that I was, all that I am.

I am dependant on you for succour, you feed me with your touch;

I need you to let me taste you, to remember your scent

To breath deeply of the dew that seeps from my touch

To bind myself in the unending torrent of feeling

And to die for a while in that certain je ne sais quoi.